On my New Year’s Resolution post, I mentioned that I don’t want to push myself to change when I don’t feel the need to do it.
I just turned 19 last April 18 and I feel like it’s time to be really acting like how a normal 19-yr old lady would. To be honest, I don’t look my age. I’m probably the only 19 whose eyebrows aren’t trimmed or drawn (and i have really thick brows). I don’t own any Sunday dresses or make-ups (except the lipstick my mom gave me recently which I haven’t worn yet). For solid 8 years, I never tried a new hair style. I just use the same layered cut on different hair lengths. Obviously, daring is absolutely out of the thousand other adjectives you can give me when it comes to fashion. I’m a walking stereotype.
On my first random fact post, I admitted I prefer basic looks of clothes, Black jeans, white shirt and other plain tees. Simplicity was always my option and I feel good about that. I’m comfortable with becoming predictable of what I’m wearing the next day. In a way, that also adds up to my identity. Moreover, it’s an up for me that people will remember me in the image that I feel I’m being my best self. Simple and that’s who i am.
On a regular school day, there are only a couple of things I drag along with me. One medium-sized bag with: phone, 2 pens, 1 mechanical pencil, 1 scientific calculator, 2 notebooks, 1 book, an umbrella, wallet, perfume, and a face powder. Nope, I’m not describing what’s inside of my brother’s backpack. See a typical girl would have 50% more things than mine for re-touch of make-up. And I admire these girls for managing to always look pretty. If that was me, I’d not even notice half the people who thinks I’m a guy for all the oil crawling down my nose. Well, I’m not exactly that kind of gross but you know what I mean.
To total everything down, I want to change something in me. I want to have a greater sense of femininity. Taking care of yourself doesn’t only include being healthy and all that but it also says of how you do with yourself in general. I think that I have to realize I’m not young enough anymore to not care how I look. Looking good is not only for the people who are looking at you. I know this is going to make me feel good and more confident. This isn’t about making others like me or anything. I just had the sense that I need to better my way of presenting myself.
I’ll keep wearing the things I’m comfortable in and put away the habits I think are not worth doing anymore.
I’ll keep the things that make me who I am and who I want to be and I will change the old habits of things that would make a better version of me.